Category Archives: lesbian

On Queer Shame as Constructing Gender and Fracturing the Past

The post that follows is a rigorously honest effort to understand how both my feelings about my gender (shame, pride, elation, comfort) and my gender identification have changed over time, before and after starting transition. In this post, I write … Continue reading

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Trans Feminism: Partial Identification as a Way of Life

As I’ve had time to become more comfortable with my transition, I am at beginning the process of coming to terms with my guilt and anxiety over being a feminist who is transitioning to male. In many ways, I recognized … Continue reading

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Gender Trickster

When I first decided to use male pronouns, it was because I needed people to recognize that I am primarily a fag, not a lesbian. When I first started taking T, it was because I couldn’t stand that people kept … Continue reading

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Feminist FTM Professor – Semester 2

I’ve been on T for about five months now, and am regularly read as male in most spaces. I guess, though, that I still have trouble believing this is actually the case. I just entered into my second semester of … Continue reading

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I Am a Bad Feminist

I’ve been a feminist for as long as I can remember. Even as a small child, I found it an outrage that women and girls should be thought less intelligent, capable, and worthy of independence than men and boys. Specifically, … Continue reading

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Me ‘n Pops

This is a post I wrote about five months ago and never published. It somehow seemed a little too personal and vulnerable, even for this very personal blog. I’m publishing it now, with an addendum at the end reflecting on … Continue reading

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What’s in a Pronoun?

When I came out to one of my mentors (not the butch mentor, my queer feminist mentor), as a trans person who had switched to male pronouns, she said to me, “You’re not changing your gender, you’re just changing the … Continue reading

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